The Life Meant for You

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Many years ago, I remember feeling frustrated with my life . I wanted to change my reality when I stumbled upon a book called, Creative Visualization, by Shakti Gawain. The book talked about using your own imagination to create the life that you wanted. I was intrigued by this ‘new age’ mindset because I desperately wanted my life to change. Like an obsessed addict I followed the book and several other books that I came across. I meditated, visualized, prayed and did positive affirmations with total sincerity. However, the harder I tried to change my life the deeper down the rabbit hole I went.

I know now that I didn’t want to be myself. I wanted to find a magic pill that would transform me into a super star, free of all human limitations. Although I could manifest certain things, like making enough money to pay the bills or shifting my state of mind. Over time, I started to realize the the guy I was deeply in love with, wasn’t the best choice for me. And maybe the things I wanted for myself were only my ego’s need to be filled.

I struggled for years fighting my own mental state . I wanted to bypass doing the inner work and like magic have the perfect life. I would see psychics, healers, and spiritual teachers who said I needed to work through all my inner demons. What a bunch of idiots, I thought to myself. I was miserable. My life felt like Ground Hogs Day. Little did I know that my spirit was patiently nudging me to stop resisting.

The more I visualized a different life with god-universe-spirit-my higher self the more I was giving momentum to my unfolding path. When I look back at myself I have to smile. I spent so much time kicking and screaming. Although now I have enough wisdom to realize there was a bigger plan in store for me and it far surpassed my own limited-finite, ideas..

Today I am helping people who are having the exact same conflict in their lives that I did back then. When I work with them, I suggest that all they need to do is surrender. They nod their head and tell me, “Yes, yes, you’re right. I will surrender,” but as soon as they get back into their lives they forget.

The personality struggles to stay in control but until we are able to surrender to our souls purpose we will continue remain out of alignment. I often think, “why is it so difficult to get this”?

People I know the struggle is real. It took me several years to finally get this.

While things may not be exactly like I wanted when I was younger, (thank god) I am in such awe, because the life I have today is the life I was meant to live. And as far as I am concerned there is nothing better than that!

“The wisdom, grace, and humor(!) Shari brings to her work is of a divine essence. By that, I mean when she speaks – it’s direct, it’s elevated, and it cuts right through all the noise.

It isn’t a blast of good vibes, or cheap flattery – the kind of ego hooks and powerlessness many profit off of. Working with Shari is learning a way of living – with presence, discernment, gratitude, and joy. It’s remembering one’s own eternal and inviolable spirit, in the face of a world becoming increasingly deceptive, fearful, and ego-driven. There’s no greater gift.”
– Georgia Kirtland

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Let Go


With the new age philosophy it can often be about how to attain happiness or manifest something outside of yourself. I have found that only by deep listening can I cultivate my true inner voice. The soul’s voice.

As I stared at the sand moving through my fingers I saw the connection of letting go of all space and time. It is only there that one can enter into their own sacred dominion.

Surrendering deep into that sacred space in-between thoughts is where you find the answers.

So dive deep and enter the portal within and you will find it is truly coming back home.

Spiritual Warrior

 “The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire.” ~ Ferdinand Foch

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photo by: Joanne Kim

I had a dream last night. I was looking out of a big glass window in a high rise building. As I looked down at the city I saw a horrific crash—what appeared to be one of the worst car crashes I have ever seen. I saw a woman fly out from the crash flipping backwards through the sky. I realized she had died and her spirit was leaving her body. I then saw several clusters of gold light surrounding the area of the accident. I started crying hysterically, an uncontrollable sob. I somehow saw myself crying and observed my reaction. At that moment a voice said “pray.” I stopped crying and realized my hysterical reaction was an automatic response. I turned around and saw a body sleeping and started yelling to wake them up. The person would not wake up and at that moment I realized I was dreaming.

The dream had me so shaken up and throughout the day I wondered what the dream was trying to tell me. It dawned on me that it was revealing how this automatic response of drama was deeply programmed into me. It became clear I was controlled by my reaction and was being asked to find the strength to rise above. I saw how it is not easy to make that change, like swimming upstream or running in sand. But I realized I could if I made the choice. I thought, “This is a spiritual warrior.” I decided then I would write a blog with the title Spiritual Warrior. I felt there must be other people out their having the same struggle in their own lives.

I thought about how many times I have overcome great adversity that has shaped me into the woman I am today. It has not been an easy path. Being a light-worker is no easy task. I remember all the years working with my teacher, Papa Joe. I began to understand the daily tests one has to endure to become a genuine healer. The idea that most people have of Spiritual Warrior is that of a cartoon figure getting rid of “the bad guy.” But being a spiritual warrior is a choice one must make over and over again. One must choose to keep and hold onto higher vibrations. In other words, becoming a spiritual warrior is a way of life and is not something that happens overnight.

From my viewpoint there is so much chaotic energy in the world today. I feel this is part of the agenda to keep people disconnected from their center. Some say the veil is being lifted. I happen to agree with this.

Are you feeling disconnected from your center? Are you frustrated with what is happening in your life and the planet? Is the fire and the fury awakening in you?

In what ways are you being challenged to develop as a spiritual warrior today?

Shari’s work is perceptive and wise. Her ability to shift my energy toward a place of more clarity is remarkable and consistent.”  ~Eugene Ahn