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The Life Meant for You
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Many years ago, I remember feeling frustrated with my life . I wanted to change my reality when I stumbled upon a book called, Creative Visualization, by Shakti Gawain. The book talked about using your own imagination to create the life that you wanted. I was intrigued by this ‘new age’ mindset because I desperately wanted my life to change. Like an obsessed addict I followed the book and several other books that I came across. I meditated, visualized, prayed and did positive affirmations with total sincerity. However, the harder I tried to change my life the deeper down the rabbit hole I went.
I know now that I didn’t want to be myself. I wanted to find a magic pill that would transform me into a super star, free of all human limitations. Although I could manifest certain things, like making enough money to pay the bills or shifting my state of mind. Over time, I started to realize the the guy I was deeply in love with, wasn’t the best choice for me. And maybe the things I wanted for myself were only my ego’s need to be filled.
I struggled for years fighting my own mental state . I wanted to bypass doing the inner work and like magic have the perfect life. I would see psychics, healers, and spiritual teachers who said I needed to work through all my inner demons. What a bunch of idiots, I thought to myself. I was miserable. My life felt like Ground Hogs Day. Little did I know that my spirit was patiently nudging me to stop resisting.
The more I visualized a different life with god-universe-spirit-my higher self the more I was giving momentum to my unfolding path. When I look back at myself I have to smile. I spent so much time kicking and screaming. Although now I have enough wisdom to realize there was a bigger plan in store for me and it far surpassed my own limited-finite, ideas..
Today I am helping people who are having the exact same conflict in their lives that I did back then. When I work with them, I suggest that all they need to do is surrender. They nod their head and tell me, “Yes, yes, you’re right. I will surrender,” but as soon as they get back into their lives they forget.
The personality struggles to stay in control but until we are able to surrender to our souls purpose we will continue remain out of alignment. I often think, “why is it so difficult to get this”?
People I know the struggle is real. It took me several years to finally get this.
While things may not be exactly like I wanted when I was younger, (thank god) I am in such awe, because the life I have today is the life I was meant to live. And as far as I am concerned there is nothing better than that!
“The wisdom, grace, and humor(!) Shari brings to her work is of a divine essence. By that, I mean when she speaks – it’s direct, it’s elevated, and it cuts right through all the noise.
It isn’t a blast of good vibes, or cheap flattery – the kind of ego hooks and powerlessness many profit off of. Working with Shari is learning a way of living – with presence, discernment, gratitude, and joy. It’s remembering one’s own eternal and inviolable spirit, in the face of a world becoming increasingly deceptive, fearful, and ego-driven. There’s no greater gift.”
– Georgia Kirtland
Healing
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“Magic, Miracle, Blessing, Grace”
It has been a year since I wrote my last blog. Recently a client asked if he could create a video for me in exchange for a session. He asked what I would like to talk about. I did not have a clue what I wanted to say. During the filming he and his girlfriend asked several questions about what I do and my responses surprised me. I had received so much wisdom from my teacher, and I wanted to share this knowledge with my next blog post.
I couldn’t help but think of a time years back when I was a mere pup and was on my extreme spiritual quest. I was lucky to cross paths and work with many powerful teachers, shamans, kahunas and profound healers. However, I was naive and did not understand the spiritual world. I certainly did not know who I was, and hence constantly being attacked by entities and feeling extremely out of sorts. I would think, “Why is this happening to me?” I asked these shamans and healers, but none would give me a straight answer. I became very isolated to the point of feeling suicidal. I had this strange deathly feeling coming from inside of me. Now I need to let you know that I was sick for weeks to the point of feeling I was actually going to die. One day I woke up and realized I had to clear this immediately. I sat like a thunder bolt and stated my intention/prayer to whatever guide or angel would listen. I shouted out, “Please help clear this energy from me now!” I sat with such a force and began to breathe as if were my last breath. Then it was if a hand reached into me and pulled the dark gremlin out of me. As it was leaving my body, it felt miles long. My mind somehow knew that this was energy clearing out from me. What I could not quite grasp was it felt very familiar. When I mentioned it to my teacher, Papa Joe, he pointed out that I was beginning to remember. This was what I had done for lifetimes, which began my new journey as a healer.
Since then several people have asked me, “Can you teach me the healing work that you do?” The answer is I can help awaken what is already inside you.
It has come to my awareness that many like myself are searching for answers. They are looking for purpose and meaning in their lives. Nothing can bring you to yourself but your own quest for spiritual truth and a deep desire to break free.
The Highest Form of Self Care
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Many years ago I felt lost, ungrounded, and full of fear. I went to my teacher Papa Joe and asked him for help. He sat me down with a big grin on his face and said “the wind is trying to speak to you”. I was a bit surprised by his response. I tried but couldn’t hear the wind talking to me. He repeated himself, “the wind has a message for you”. Frustrated, I still couldn’t hear a thing. He said “stop trying and just do it”. I took a long deep breath and got myself as present as I possibly could. I started to sense the leaves on the trees and the rustling sound they made. Not thinking about the wind but feeling it and becoming one with it all around me. Then suddenly, as if a doorway opened, I began to hear but the voice was deep within myself. It was so simple.
“Quieting yourself is the problem and silence is the solution,” Papa said, beaming with pride for my discovery.
This experience changed my life forever. From then on I practiced what I had learned from my wise teacher.
I equated this listening with being the highest form of self care. When we are silent we can detach from all the cords that keep us in disharmony. So we can connect to the truth inside us instead of looking outside for answers and validation.
What could be better then being at home with ourselves?
“In a world, a city, a town, where people claim to be ‘a healer’ no one is more true, more studied, more genuine and powerful than this woman. From a sprained ankle to a heartbreak to a child suffering from ADD her hands on healing and intuitive capabilities will blow you away. You walk in one person and leave another, filled with peace, clarity and a real sense of renewal” ~Dina
Slaying your dragons
“Expose yourself to your deepest fear, after that, fear has no power, and fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free. ~ Jim Morrison
As the summer starts to fade, and we begin to move into the fall it is the perfect time to become reacquainted with ourselves. Days become shorter and we start to go inside and prepare our fireplaces with wood as reflection starts to happen quite naturally. I personally love the fall. However it does make me feel sad and melancholy sometimes but in a good way. WIth the change of weather, I was inspired to write a new blog.
I went to the store a couple of days ago to get prepared for a dinner party at my home. I could not help but to notice a woman who was extremely rude. She nearly knocked me over to get a parking space. I later saw her face to face in the market. Her eyes were in a fury and very far away. The body language was cold, angry, and saying “me first”! Not someone present at all. I looked her deep in the eyes, and immediately got goose bumps. There was something else looking at me, and I knew it was not her.
It got me thinking about, how many times have we either experienced someone like this on our path or even been there ourselves? Ever stop to wonder what is the force behind this strange kind of behavior?
When I apprenticed with my teacher over a period of seven years, I began to notice these “things” not only in others but with me as well. What I saw blew my mind. When you actually focus on these fears, angers, strange behaviors/thoughts, and obsessions is that they are alive. It’s like they have a mind or will of their own, and they do. What are they? It was brought to my attention that these “things” were entities. People over the years have asked me “where do these entities come from”? I literally could spend hours explaining, but for now will just touch briefly on the subject.
It is important to start taking inventory so we can be responsible for ourselves. Take a good look at the fears that control and block us from becoming who we could be. A lot of our imbalances, sicknesses, depression, anxieties, addictions, and making bad choices, stem from these energies. Sounds like sci-fi, right? But if you really think about it, why is it so hard to change these things in ourselves? Or why would someone be so rude to practically run you over in their car? Why would anyone choose to be unconscious?
I have mentioned before in previous blogs, how important it is to do the work, to raise our vibration. Ridding ourselves of the dragons that keep pulling us down, dragging us off our paths, and making us into sheep or zombies.
Thankfully, you can get help with a great deal of this. Healers (Shamans, Kahunas, Tuhungas) people with “Real Medicine” to assist in transforming the negative energies. It takes time, but this is a start to beginning an existence of freedom. It is possible. With the awareness as well as surrendering your ego we all can Slay our Dragons.
“Shari moves energy. She is invaluable for those who are ready to embark on journeys of personal growth, take responsibility for what is (or is not) happening to them. Or for those who simply need clear energy in order to move forward. Be ready for things to shift!” L. Anomaiprasert
For details on my next workshop please go to group sessions page
Photo by Richard Lee Smith Jr.
My teacher Papa Joe
I wanted to share with you about a man who transformed my life. His name was Hohepa Delamere, or better known as Papa Joe.
I had moved to Los Angeles from London where I had been working as a model for seven years. I came here thinking I would become an actress, but something very different happened.
I was searching and looking to find a reason why I had this continuous fear that haunted me and I could not control it. I was doing an enormous amount of work on myself therapy, spiritual teachers/healers, new age books, seminars and retreats. Nothing was shifting this fear and pain from me.
Then I met a woman named Angel. She always was trying to sell you something or sponsor some healer. However one time she rang me to tell me about these Maori Healers that were coming into town. She could not even finish her sentence I replied “Yes I’m in”, I never felt more certain about anything in years !!
I booked my appointment and went to the home where these healers were working. I then was put on a table where Papa Joe was sitting intently waiting. I lay down and began to tremble then cry from the deepest place in my soul. I knew something was moving in me that was so much bigger then me I began to scream and violently move around. I could hear Papa chanting louder and louder then as if I was giving birth released this energy from my body and I let out a primal scream that felt as if it had been in me for lifetimes. I looked up at all the people surrounding the table they all had this light in all of their eyes supporting this healing and that light was filling me and my much needed wounded self. I kept saying over and over thank you, thank you. Something had happened, I knew at that moment I just had an exorcism. I knew I had waited years for this man to release this from me.
Afterwards Papa Joe sat me down and talked to me. He said this: “You had a very hard childhood and that I released a very powerful destructive entity from you”. Then he said “You are not being honest about your life.”And then I thought “What does he mean by that? Does he mean my career as an actress?” He looked me at me straight in the eyes and said “Yes and its now about your soul’s journey.” At that moment I realized he had read my mind because I NEVER SAID IT OUT LOUD!
He then said “You will now start a whole new life and I will see you tomorrow”… I was elated I could not wait to come back and make tea and help around the healers. What I did not know is that I would then become “one of those healers”.
When I came back the next day he called me over to a table where he was working on this guy. He said put your hand on his nose. I said “No, I’m not a healer” and to be honest I was freaked out about doing it. However he never listened to me and just looked at me knowingly. I put my hands on his nose. He said “What do you feel?” I looked at him like Huh?? He told me to stop thinking and just tell him what I felt !! Then out of my mouth it came, “a tumor”, “Yes he said, now get rid of it”. Again huh? What? “You heard me,” he said. “I will help you do it.” His fingers on one side of this man’s nose, mine on the other side. In that very moment a electrical current went to my fingers and he said “Now we will circulate the energy”. The man began to scream and cry and yell bloody murder. By the time he left the tumor was gone. He came back a few weeks later and confirmed medically the tumor in his nose was gone.
I then began a seven year apprenticeship with this man..
If it sounds like I was skipping the road of happy destiny you’re wrong. This man’s energy was so powerful and his teachings so advanced. I struggled, kicked, screamed, resisted, and resented this every step of the way. I was very frightened of the energy world but it was my path. Finally however I did surrender. I left my career as a actress/model and began working on people as a healer. THEY just kept showing up. I began to get very positive results with my sessions. However I had a lot to learn, because this was a real powerful Tahunga Master! Tahungas are even higher on the spiritual totem pole than shamans.
I saw him everytime he came to Topanga and the table I work on today with my clients is the table Papa used every time he was in town .
He then brought me to New Zealand where I stayed with him and his family and began to learn the true ways of the ancient healing rituals. A great deal of these rituals were entity removal. He told me this would become a huge part of my work. Entities are negative energies that attach themselves to people or things.They cause the majority of illnesses, addictions, mental or emotional imbalances. I of course witnessed throughout the years several of these entity removals.
Papa has now left the planet. If you go to the internet there are very few things you can read about him. I could not believe this. There was never a moment with this man that he wasn’t doing some miraculous healing or teaching. Somebody interviewing him about his abilities. But I do know that he changed my life. He took this scared helpless wounded girl and held the flame till I was capable of standing on my own two feet and remembered my “soul’s journey” as he would put it. I still feel this man is alive today but in another dimension. Thank you Papa Joe! May the legacy live on….
I will be doing my first workshop in April for details look on my group sessions page.
“Shari Geitzenauer and I both had the extremely good fortune to have known Hohepa dela Mere alias Papa Joe personally. Shari had been his student ever since the Maori set foot on California ground. Whenever they came from New Zealand for one of their journeys of healing and raising general consciousness, Shari was at Papa Joe’s side and has learnt everything she needed to know by personal transmission. Before the extraordinary healer, teacher and human being went to the other side of veil back in 2006, he released Shari onto her very own path. She has been on a unique journey of healing ever since, not only performing her skills on people, but also relieving the environment from negative entities. From personal experience I know her sessions to be profound and deeply transforming. By eliminating blockages, reprogramming cellular coding, clearing the energetic field from anything undesired and putting her client into touch with personal guides, one comes out on the other side of one her hour long sessions entirely transmuted. I can highly recommend her work for anyone who desires to be relieved of old patterns, dis-ease, unwanted gravity of negativity and or a raising of one’s energetic field. “
Iraeus (Iris Loesel)
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